If we were having coffee I’d tell you I feel a bit like I’m dangling in a weird limbo. It’s the end of January but Christmas feels like years ago. I haven’t got used to saying 2022, but then I never really felt at ease with 2021. It’s like I’m still in 2020 but it’s gone on way too long. It feels as if there’s always been a pandemic, that this is just life. But it still doesn’t feel possible that pandemic is even a thing in my lifetime. I don’t feel as though pandemic life is a mayor struggle, but I do feel as though I’m waiting for something.
If we were having coffee you’d realise that this is going to be a ramble.
After almost two years of semi shielding I tested positive for Covid-19, at the start this year. It came from nowhere really, I guess it always does. I had a couple of days where I felt a little sick, not quite right, and so did some lateral flow tests (I do these regularly anyway, with having people in and out of my house). They were both negative. I’ve been taking part in the Zoe Covid-19 Study since the early days, and so was subsequently invited for a PCR test. Just over five days later (which is way too long) I received a text that I had to read multiple times before it sunk in. My result was positive.
If we were having coffee I’d be honest with you and say that I’d always thought that when this day came it would be terrifying. The grim reaper knocking. And it was still concerning, a little scary, but I was apparently on day 6 without even realising.
So, I had the odd headache. My eyes weirdly hurt. And my sleep was more restless than usual. But these things were mild and so sporadic that I didn’t link them all together.
I’ve been asked if I’m going to ‘get on with life a bit more now’ and if I ‘wish I had done more’ meaning not been so cautious. But how I see it is I’m extremely lucky, but I also caught Covid without going far. I hadn’t left the house since Boxing Day and have only seen people with negative lateral flows. That’s a little bit scary in itself. Exposure also plays a huge part in how Covid works (in my limited knowledge anyway), and so maybe I got a tiny dose.
With restrictions/protections now lifted I will continue to be the same level of cautious. Not being a complete recluse, but not quite ready to party.
If we were having coffee I’d point you in the direction of this interview with an acquaintance of mine (weird word ‘acquaintance’). It’s like she’s speaking my thoughts, only much more articulate.
If we were having coffee I’d tell you there’s one thing I’m certain of. And that’s that the vaccine is doing it’s job. Not only possibly saving my life, but also reducing the amount of exposure I could have had. So if you haven’t had yours yet, and you can, then why wouldn’t you?? Honest answers please.
If we were having coffee I’d tell you I went out for the first time this year, a couple of days ago. By ‘out’ I mean to Home Bargains, because that’s the kind of life goals I have right now. Oh I did stop by at Greggs for a sausage roll. He’s quite the master of them, it’s my guilty pleasure.
Mostly my little trip just made me remember how much of an afterthought I am. I think there are 7 tills in Home Bargains. Do you know how many of them are wide enough to fit my wheelchair through? My fairly narrow wheelchair compared to some. One. There is one accessible till. And which till was every customer queuing at? How’d you guess. That one. As other tills were opened and people offered for me to head to them, I had to decline. Telling them that this is the only till I can access, the only one for wheelchair users.
If we were having coffee I’d tell you that just a centimetre or two extra allowance in design would have made every till accessible to everyone. Is it really that hard?
Then when I got to Greggs I thought I’d use the loo. Well why not, while I’m here. Oh, because the door doesn’t close on the accessible toilet that opens out onto the whole cafe.
If we were having coffee I’d tell you I didn’t think I was going to make it back to the car. Wheeling around Home Bargains the battery icon on my wheelchair started to decline greatly. It seems that like me, my wheelchair is becoming fatigued quickly from not enough exercise!
And so I’ve decided to go out a bit more. Not the partying mentioned above, but in the garden, walks, that kind of thing.
I’ve been craving summer and the outdoors, like I’m in withdrawal from it. I appreciated summer the past two years like never before.
If we were having coffee I’d ask if you know what Wordle is? I had to Google it if I’m honest, and I’ve been on a mission ever since. If you don’t know, it’s those little squares that keep popping up on social media. Rows of them in grey, green and yellow. It’s basically a word guessing game in which everyone in the world has the chance to guess the same word as each other, a new one being released daily. It’s always a five letter word, and you get six guesses with clues along the way in the form of coloured letters if you get something right. I’m not explaining it very well, but go check it out yourself.
If we were having coffee I’d tell you my best score so far is guessing the word in two. When I get it in one I feel that life will likely be complete.
What’s your best score?
The good thing about Wordle is that it’s just a little daily thing, and so I can’t get obsessed or waste too much of my day on it! Or so I thought, until a friend sent me the link where you can go back and complete all the previous Wordles that you may have missed before you knew it was a thing.
I have 210 words to find. Which is why this blog post is days later than it should have been.
If we were having coffee I’d ask if you watch The Great Pottery Throwdown? It’s like GBBO but less edible.
I’m a sucker for these creative competition kind of shows. There was even a woodworker one late last year. I love the camaraderie and how people can make something out of nothing. It reminds me of my time at Art School, where we would all have our little station and be working to the same brief but come up with something totally different and personal. You can tell a lot about a person from their makes.
If we were having coffee I’d ask if you’re creative and what you like to produce?
Talking of creativity, #The100DayProject starts again soon. On 13th February if you’re interested.
This will be my third time taking part. You might remember the cross stitch squares I did, or the stone painting obsession. This year I want to do something a little different and am going down the digital route. I used to love painting and mixed media mark making, but over time it’s gradually become more difficult for me physically, meaning less freeing and enjoyable if I require too much help. So I’ve downloaded a couple of drawing apps, had a play, and decided to go from there. I’ll be creating daily little digital paintings.
You can follow my progress and take part yourself on Instagram. My creations will all be shared with #100DaysOfMiniMarks
If we were having coffee I’d ask if you watch This Is Us? If you don’t then you should. I won’t give anything away but we are on the final season ever and I’m going to miss it way more than you should ever miss a fictional thing. With its flashbacks and flashforwards, it’s like I’ve lived these peoples whole lives. It has a clever way of making you always feel there, whatever the decade, it always feels ‘now’. I’ve been through everything with these characters and the show is so bloomin bittersweet, it just gets you right in the everything.
If we were having coffee I’d ask if you know of any good shows with all the feels? Because I’m going to need something.
If we were having coffee what would you tell me?